by Sara Beth Yurow
© 2019

Dear God
If you're real
I used to believe in you
I had so much faith in you

I used to pray to you
Talking to you always came so easy
Even when I hated you
There was nothing I couldn't say

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But when I was at my weakest
You left me all alone
When I was in the deepest
I was the only one home

The fact that you'd make me feel
Something that black
That it could end that way, that it could feel that bad
I don't know how to live with that

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So I cry
And cry
Try to believe like before
Give up and then cry some more
Oh why?
God why?
Would you make a question with no answer
So give me a reason for this cancer

So God
Now how do I talk to you?
Knowing what I know?
I don't know how to let this go

Dear God
I have so much to say to you
But I fear it'll all be in vain
Like no one's listening

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Cause yeah, I was saved
But others weren't
Someone else's pain became my hurt
I would never leave someone at their worst

But I'm scared you would

Chorus

Bridge:
I'm bleeding out all the pain I have
Praying to God that this won't last
Maybe I should just stop running fast as I can
Are you listening?

Chorus:
When we cry?
And cry?
Try to believe like before
Give up and then cry some more
Oh why?
God why?
Why?

So hey
God, hey
I know I'm stubborn as hell
So tell me you'll me there as well
So, save
God, save
Me from this pain I can hardly stand
You created me so you know who I am